burn me for the first time

okay well its almost a week until AFRIKABURN. And since this will be my first time going and I don't really know what to expect, I have super mixed feelings cause I don't want to set up these high expectations and then feel disappointed with an experience that would have been amazing had it not been for my expectations. I dont know if this makes sense?

Nevertheless I have been spending some time looking at photos of previous burns and lets just say it's not helping with my zero expectations plan:

Mind Cooked

I don't know about you but these days everybody has an issue with food. I mean yes I do fall under that category being vegetarian and all. But honestly I feel as though people are far more concerned about their weight and diet than in the past. Few of us actually stick to the diets we set for ourselves but we tend to still have endless arguments about which is the latest diet to follow or which foods will boost your metabolism or when was the last time you set foot in the gym.

I think it's fantastic because people should look at their health as being one of the most important aspects of their lives.
I mean in school for example students no longer have say 5 slices of bread instead they will have a healthy salad for lunch.

Food that used to be a form of enjoyment has now, through the lets call it "health conscious movement", become a burden on our psyche. I mean just last week my brother and I were in the grocer and we both felt like a chocolate but because we feel so obliged to be health conscious we searched the whole store for an alternative. We did come across a delicious bar which consisted of dates, raw cocoa and cinnamon but I still crave the pure enjoyment chocolate can bring one.

There are so many theories and beliefs out there about food and your diet that it has become quite a challenge to know what is valid and actually the truth. In that sense I feel sorry for the younger generation as they need to make up their mind on how and what to eat and then come to find that in two years time the research has proven that what they believe may not be the right thing to be doing after all.

Well, all in all I just really hope this "movement" can only have positive effects onto our society.

no more fear

As you know I've recently decided to follow in your lovely footsteps and become a vegetarian but I realised that I never actually told you why or maybe I did and just forgot but now I'm going to tell you again:

It was a scene in a movie where the girl said she doesn't eat meat and when asked why not she replied with the most beautiful answer she said that when an animal is killed it is in fear and that she doesn't want to eat the animals fear, she obviously said it using far better words to explain herself but you get the picture?

I also decided to share with you my favee vegetarian websites:
deliciously ella
milikingalmands
oh she glows
cookie and kate (my absolute)

I hope you enjoy the recipes you find on these websites and hopefully soon we will be living together making our own amazing vegi meals.

(bun to bellie)

No more second chances

It's so awful I still don't feel like they are addressing me when teachers say matrics. It's like I know it's me they are talking to but my whole self just doesn't want to accept that this is my last year that there are no more second chances, in the academic aspect of my life at least. This is it. 

And I'm scared so scared for what's to come with finals and all but at the same time I'm just numb and I literally have no emotion. Although I know I have to give it my all now cause well as I said there are NO MORE SECOND CHANCES! Everything I do now is final and dictates my future. Even though right now I feel I don't even have a future and that I'm just going to stop existing one of these days. But having said all that I still can't manage to give my all and part of me hates myself for it while another part of me couldn't care less about anything. 

We have so many tests that just popped up in the last minute it's as though all the teachers just realized "woah it's almost the end of the term and these kids look so stressed out but let's stress them out some more, just for kicks." I'm writing chemistry, which I only found out about on Wednesday, today so I decided to wake up at 4am to study cause I was just too exhausted yesterday 

and well this is my study brake. 

Also I'm just getting more and more freaked out everyday because I still don't know what I'm going to do next year ahhh all this stress of tests and my future is going to drive me mental.  

Jai Paul - Btsu

My new favorite soooong. I've been listening to it an obscene amount lately and the feeling the song gives you pretty much sums up what my mood has been lately hahaha I hope you don't feel something completely different to what I feel cause that will just be awkward haha but I sort of know you'll get it cause well you are you and I am me and we aren't just ordinary friends aha   

Why can't we just be famous and chill with jayz and yeezy? 

Bun to Bellie 

I can't stop.

I am writing a science test tomorrow and obviously it would be beneficial if I was studying at this point in time and not spending it on tumblr and youtube. But that is just what I always end up doing. This term has felt like an exam term because there has not been a single day where I do not have to study. I can't even begin to imagine how awful the actual exam terms are going to be. and let us not even begin to talk about finals.

Well all this procrastination led to me to a very uplifting music video. I honestly wish I could dance like the guy in the video.

you make my dreams come true, you you

holy moly me ohmy! ahh I actually don't know how to explain to you how much i love you. Your package is the most amazing thing ahh im sitting here drinking "liquid caramel" out of my huge blue mug and I'm near tears because well everything is just so amazing and wow.

you are most definitely the most wonderful person in my life aggg.

i just want this year to be gone so that our "real life" can start.

( Bun to Bellie)

nominate me for an oscar please?

I'm lying in bed with tonsillitis. How fantastic?  I am also trying very hard to stay awake for the oscars, which only come on, on south african television, at 3 am. I suppose I could just watch the rerun tomorrow? But thats not quite the same.

Just for interests sake here are some of the nominations. dum dum dumm
Best picture:
'American Hustle'
'Captain Phillips'
'Gravity'
'Her'
'Nebraska'
'Philomena'
'12 Years a Slave'
'The Wolf of Wall Street'

Best actor:
'Christian Bale'
'Bruce Dern'
'Leonardo di Caprio'
'Chiwetel Ejiofor'
'Mathew McConaughey'

Best Actress:
'Amy Adams'
'Cate Blanchett'
'Sandra Bullock'
'Judi Dench'

Now I have only seen one of the movies on that list and that is 'Gravity'. I can add that I have watched all the trailers for the others. But that doesn't count so I do feel very disappointed in myself to say the least. The Oscars is such a glamorous and elite event. I am so happy that Ellen De Generes is the host, she's such a remarkable woman.

So let's allow the anticipation to commence...

I did attend the Design Indaba this morning and I must say I was a bit disappointed. There were amazing things but also a lot of repetition from the previous year and I don't know it just missed that oomf. There was a 3D model printer which was incredible though. ahh. I mean how does it even work?? I think I stood there for at least an hour watching it "print" something.