Color me in?

I feel sort of emotionless and colorless 

I feel sort of bland and tasteless 

I feel sort of cold and turned off

I feel sort of unnatural and untruthful 

Color me in? Fill me with life and light and color. I want to be colorful I want to be exciting and I want to burn with color. 

Color me in? 

Keep it a secret

I went to the spier secret festival on Friday it was so fantastic. There was a lady that spoke to us , Marije Vogelzang. I   never really find speakers that inspirational, don't get me wrong I try but often it's not something that fascinates me, but this lady was so great! She is a eating designer (it just sounds cool already). She combines food, culture and psychology. 

Above: she baked veggies in clay and then you have to crack it open with a hammer. 

I'm so inspired! I just had to share it with you! 

and the world spins madly on

I actually can't believe that it's already time for final exams again. I feel like it was just the other day that we were fetching our grade 10 reports and laughing and tanning on the highest level at the diving pool, looking down at the people judging us HAHA and hugging each other in the air just before sinking to the bottom of that pool, how amazing was that day? OH GOODGOD I MISS YOU!!

But its almost the end of the year and that means, hopefully, I'll get to see you in the holiday and we can laugh and cry about all the things we DIDN'T do this year.

(bun to bellie)

so bad

Lately  I can't stop thinking of all the bad things I've said its not bad bad things its just like gossip but I still hate that I do it. Whenever I say something about someone else I immediately feel guilty and just want to take it back but then it's too late and uuurg. WHY DO I CONTINUE THOUGH????

(bun to bellie)

mamihlapinatapai

I saw this yesterday after I was on the phone with you and thought of what you said  about the look you shared with HIM, there's a name for it. You two are meant to be:

(bun to bellie)

Why can't I just be

I used to think I was one of those romantic girls. The ones whose boyfriends buy them flowers and surprise them and take them on long walks where they hold hands all the way to the the end of the road just to turn back so they can go on forever. Maybe I just need to fall in love and wait till I can really tell, but right now that's how I feel. 

The closer I get to relationships the further away from that person I want to be. The more surprises I get the more I want to runaway. 

Why can't I just accept. 

when the time runs out

Exams start in 2 weeks and I'm suddenly so scared, these are the ones that count ! We have to do good because well everything depends on it. I actually can't believe how fast the time just flew by and I don't know whether to be happy about this or just roll up and cry. I just feel like the time is running out and that I'm going to wake up one day and wonder where my life went. I want to do more with my life,  to travel more and just do more spontaneous and adventurous things, because right now I am wasting the the gift, that is life.

THIS IS NOT HOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE!

if i could swim in all of these amazing pools my life would be complete:

blue cave, capri, italy 

melissani lake, greece

to sua ocean trench, samoa

(bun to bellie)

Everybody all alone

I came across this picture on tumblr. It's like everything we say is being secretly recorded and then is somehow shown to us! This is amazing!